If you search the internet for the quote, you are given the source as everyone from a Greek philosopher (Heraclitus) from 544 BC to Issac Asimov the sci fi writer of the 20th century. Confucious and Rochefoucauld, a novelst of the 1900's, are thrown in for good measure and I understand why. The words ring true at no matter what stage your life takes and were true from ancient times up to and including today.
Change can be brought on by situation forced upon someone or by choice. We change everyday as we make choices to our daily life. What to eat, how to prepare it etc.
I find myself at that crossroad with change.
My life has changed in the last 6 months. The ties that have been a protective bond, have been released. The bonds that restricted me from chasing a dream have been removed and I find the idea thrilling and down right scary.
I watch my child, whom is now older and ready for such changes that run through my mind carefully and mindfully that each time I make a change in our lives, it effects him greatly. Until today, it has been a divorce, (to end the verbal abuse and the controlling behaviors that my ex was using on us) moving several times to get closer to his school and doing what is best for him. I doubt that he always sees these changes as positives at times and is trying very hard to work through the whys with answers that I cannot and should not give him. I wonder if each time I use the phrase "When you are grown up, if you still need to know, then ask and I will tell you." will he really want to know when he is in his 20's. I am hoping he has his own answers by then.
I have become a great fan of the HBO series "Game of Thrones". Change is constant in this book series as the families wage war on each other and the blood flows from the medieval battlefields that they wage it on. Some of the characters I wish would not change or leave... Robb Stark. His father was killed off. Good for the story, bad for my heart as I fell in love with him as a great character. Robb, I fear will come to that end as well. sigh. But, the ever changing world that some of these characters live in, provides me with comfort as well. That a young noble woman travelling to the north meets a assassin whom protects her and rewards her for saving him (rare in medieval times, he would have most likely just tried to escape...) Jaqen H'ghar, is an assassin of the highest order. Captured and was to be sent to the Wall (snow covered ice cap) to protect the country from invaders. He instead is rescued by this young girl and rewards her with his services and his pledge to protect her. This is the "good man" that you don't want to change in a book or movie. The hero that I don't want to change or to be changed (killed off etc).
No matter how much I love Jaqen H'ghar (the hero), I do know that with time, as in this series/books comes change. The constant in our lives. Whether it is to do something that will be hard now, but, for the best later, creating change is what drives most of us. Changing jobs, changing outfits or buying that house/car or burial plot and yes, marrying that boyfriend.
Contemplating large change is always the hardest for the creators of books/movie worlds and for us whom are just working on our own world. Mapping out, the if this, then that, type of decisions.
But, a journey of a thousand steps starts with but a single step. (nope, I don't know who said that, tee hee)
But, I think I am ready for that first step.
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